Aku nak emo lak... Boleh? Cipap! Boleh ah!

Me and my only Love...

Halo mendakians...

Today i wanna emo on tis blog. So kalau interested baca lah post aku yang panjang ni.

Nampak gambar yang kat atas tu? Ah! ah! Yang pompuan tu. Ah! ah! Tats my galfren for almost 3 years already. After 7 ex-galfrens, 295 flings, and one sick bimbo (Hudah Al-Majlis... hehe!), i've found my only love. I love Sab like mad. More than anyone. More than my family. More than my dad. More than Lan and Ali. More than u mendakians. But i do love u guys. Love k, bukan like! If i lose anyone of u, i'll be really sad. I want us to grow old and successful together if its possible. So i hope tis blog does some good in keepin our friendships. Niwae, pasal Sab lak... Hehehe...

Yah, i quarrelled wif Sab (again?). Wats new rite? U know, i know. Sab called me, and we were talking bout jobs. Cik Samsiah (mak Sab lah) asked if i would like to apply for teaching. Mak Sab have a thing for teaching i think. Its like one of the best job to her. Yah, i would love to teach in a school. But aku nak ajar ape? Aku ni bodoh sikit, O levels aje. I would love to teach music, and i meet the requirements, really. But i told Sab tat i love my current job. Keje ape? Stall helper at Fir Iqbal, Tanjong Pagar Railway Foodcourt. Alot of people might think 'ape sak Fazli buat kat situ?... ade keje lagi bagus ape'. Well, to me, tis is the best job i've ever had. Imagine bein happy at the end of the day after every work. Wats more better than tat? Tis is sumthin i love doin. So, Sab macam asked me a few questions bout the job. Wats my pay like? Wat are the working hours like? Wat benefits do i get? Dental (part ni sensitive ah, pasal gigi aku senget!)? Medical (lagi sensitive, pasal aku sakit otak... Hehehe! Jus kiddin!) Blah blah blah... Then Sab sounded like she was demoralizing and critisizing me. U noe, kadang kadang Sab ni blunt sikit. Aku pun bingit giler ah. It was not the first time she commented bout my job. So gaduh gaduh gaduh, i tot Sab wanted someone who has a better career and life, and so i told her ok ah, gi cari boyfren baru, yang ade duit, kaya, stable job and will marry her in jus few months. So i asked for a break up... (and ni dah no 54 kali aku asked for a break btw)... Aku jahat aku tau. But i tot she wanted someone better lah... Gi ah cari...

So Sab melalak... Then ape entah dia buat, dia teran macam nak berak gitu, lepas tu nangis, lepas tu aku dengar bunyi 'ketak ketak' and Sab letak telepon. So i tot it was over. Aku pun menangis. Imagine someone whom u love who doesnt really support wat u do. Sedih ok. Aku pun rasa marah. Tapi i didnt get angry for more than 4 mins ah. Baru 3:54:56 aje, so setan lum take over lagi. Then Sab called, kita pun make up. Semua ni misunderstandin. I realised tat she was jus insecure. Yelah, keje macam aku buat skarang, kadang kadang will go bad. But its business. There are pros and cons. Its God's will. So Sab and i talked bout everything again. Sab nak support aku in watever i do, i know. But she doesnt know how to. Dia kental. Tapi aku sayang dia giler bapak (bapak aku dah giler gadgets btw)... She jus wants to grow old wif me, good or bad, together always. She loves me, i know.

I know i mean to her, but at times only. NOT everytime. Kadang kadang munji munji palek ni semua tak nampak benda baik yang aku buat. Benda jahat, mak oi, heboh satu nasi goreng kampung. And if anyone were to say i dont appreciate wat Sab does for me, i'm goin feed tat mofo wif nasi goreng killer. U dont know shit, u dont talk shit. I know i'm mean when i ask for break ups. Its so kental and immature of me to. I'm sorry dear. I really am. My mouth is foul (plus it stinks). Here's a small promise i'm gonna make, i wont do tat anymore. (Semua mendak saksi ok!)... If i ever were to say it again, u blog bout it. Aku ni kuat jealous, but i know my limits. But i wouldnt like some other guys to msg my galfren asking wat's she doin lah, how's her day lah, how's work lah, dah makan ke belum, every single freakin day. U get wat i mean. Wats ur motive? Wat u want? "Wat u doing??"... Jeez! Its ok if ur galfren/boyfren ask tat. Only ppl who are bored as fuck would sms someone and ask 'wat u doing'. I get them from ppl who are not important in my life, everyday. But i still dont reply, cos its gonna waste me a few more sms. So pls, entertain urself. Remember tat!

Sab ade curfew and we lasted for almost 3 years. Tats sumthin i should be proud of. I told my boss tat Sab has curfews and he asked 'U're still wif her??'... Dear, dont be mad. He admires our relationship. Aku hidup free as a dodo bird. Sab lives like a caged bird. Its very hard ok. Some of ya'll prolly dont know wat it feel like to meet someone u love for a short while aje, 2 or 3 days a week. I've never got tired of Sab. She gets more beautiful to my eyes everytime i see her. Muka makin berseri. Pantat makin sek. Bibir makin sedap dicium. Makin jambu, makin sek ah! Tak boleh tasyan k. Macam nak hold dier giler bapak k. Kalau boleh lipat, aku masuk kan dalam beg aku. (Btw Sab belikan aku beg baru, Fourskin dok!). I love her so much k. There no one else i wanna be wif. Only Sab. I do flirt wif girls, but Sab mesti comes to my mind. (macam kacau daun ah, but its good wat). I cant imagine my life without her.

Dear, i love u so much, i seriously dont know how much. Love u more than i love
anyone and anything. I would do anything tat i'm capable of to make u smile.
Sorry for the times i make u cry. Sorry for the times i wanted to leave u alone.
I wont say i promise not to quarrel wif u anymore, but i'll lessen it k. Kadang
kadang quarrel best jugak. But i promise i wont ever mention breakin up. I dont
want to lose u. U are so special to me. U are my princess, and i'm ur prince,
but i'm sorry i dont have a white horse. Pls stay wif me k. Dear, u are not
alone k. Dont always think like tat. And remember wat my resolution tis year? I
gonna hold on to tat k. Once again, i love u. And i miss u like mad sia...
Hehehe... OK! I wont say 'sia' anymore. ;)

Bout the phone, its not my fault eh. U yang kasi pecah. (Ni dah nak start gaduh balik ah konon). But i will help u repair the phone k. (Wah, jen step romantic!). Ala, nanti i belikan phone baru ah! (wah! Jen step giler!)

Btw people... I miss meetin u guys! Lets meet up before semua dah start busy giler bapak. Esp si budak friendster yang nak masuk NS tu. Hehehe! K, ape ape nanti aku picit.

Dah ngantuk ni... Besok nak gi pasar lagi... Sigh... K, peace!